I hear a knock on the door.

“Matt. Are you ok?”

“yeah. I’m fine.”

“What’s going on?”

“I’m showering”

“Ok, well hurry.”

I quickly wash off though
I am reluctant to touch
My body again, as the only
Thing on my mind is Daniel.
I get out and wrap a towel
Around me. I lay carefully
Down on the bed as not
To hurt myself. I breathe
In deeply, smelling Daniel,
From where he has laid
On my pillow.

“ugg.. its’ ten.”

I flip my alarm on
And pull the blankets
Around me. I wake
Up slowly the next
Morning and for
The only day I have
To during the week,
Go out to the bus stop.
My sister walks out
Behind me.

*Oh my fucking…She
Is stoned.*

“Lisa.. sh.. don’t make a
Scene.”

“What… where are my
Converse. What shoes
Am I wearing?”

“uhh. Vans.”

“So, where are my converse?”

“home?”

“Where’s my Pepsi?”

“In your hand.”

“Hold it for me.”

“Sure. I am going to
Put it in your book bag.”

“Do I have my shorts?”

“Yes.”

I went to see Daniel,
After leaving my sister
With Mike. I get to his
Moms’ Classroom and
Smile at him, as soon as
His mom left, I broke
Down.

“Daniel. I messed up so
Bad and now my sister
Is here at school stoned.
Alex almost died. This is
All my fault.”

“wow”

He hugs me and
I try hard not to cry.

*I am so glad he is
back. I feel safe now.*